PRECIOUS CHILD

You never left
But to me you are gone
I thought I was born to be in the center
But I was born to be outside
I’m the ring of circles
Empty inside more dust
Fall into the circle
Feather inside stone

Lights shiver watch me
As I become stone

Rings inside of circles
Feather inside stone
Rings inside of circles
Feather inside stone

Land taught me back
Beyond dry skin
Beyond survives
Nothing survives
Burn to the end
Flames in fire
Revenge the end
Drowned in fire
Sliced flesh a delight
A delight
Ten trillion lies on lies on lies
Burn to the end
Flames in fire
Revenge the end
Drowned in fire

A STAIRCASE
A FEARPLACE
AN EXIT, AN EXIT
AN EXIT, AN EXIT

Inside someone
Slither you new
Is a burn up
Is a burn up
Lonely is the shape
The circle
Shape the circle
Hollow hollow
I am balsa
In iron beam
Clock on a loop
Tail with string
Stitch against regret
Let’s sew skin
Arm to arm
The fat and the thin

A STAIRSCAPE
A FEARCASE
AN EXIT, AN EXIT
AN EXIT, AN EXIT

They told me
They’d teach me how to
Give you exit
EXIT, EXIT

I'M A STAIRCASE
I’M A FEARPLACE
I’M AN EXIT
EXIT, EXIT
I’M A STAIRCASE
I’M A FEARPLACE
I’M AN EXIT
EXIT, EXIT

Here we are the final night 
The final night for you 
What’s abuse 
What’s abuse 
Just trying to drive my car 
4AM to get there to be used 
Escape 
It never came 
It never came 
I never came 
At least 
I’m being used 
At least I have a use 
A use for you 
A use for you 
A use to you 

You’re changing me 
I’m becoming 
I’m losing 
My discovery 
I’m using you 
To change 
To change me 

Swim in my private waters 
You are yours and you are mine 
Drink in my private waters 
You are yours and you are mine 

My fate to die 
I will die by my hand 
Is that abuse 
What’s abuse 
A state of mind 
A physical thing 
Come on now and tell me 
What’s abuse 
What’s abuse 
I call you names 
I say you’re a worthless shame 
You say you’re right 
Is that abuse? 

You’re changing me 
I’m becoming 
I’m losing 
My discovery 
I’m using you 
To change 
To change me 

Breathe in my private waters 
You’re not yours 
You are mine 
Sleep in my private waters 
You were yours 
Now you are mine 
Breathe in my private waters 
You’re not yours 
You are mine 
Sleep in my private waters 
You were yours 
Now you are mine 

You’re the fork in my river 
You split and divide my mind 
You’re changing me 
You’re changing me 
I’m losing me 
I’m losing 
I am the river 
A river in your sea 
Water inside the river 
Belongs in the sea 
Belongs with me 

Swim in my private waters 
You are yours and you are mine 
Drink in my private waters 
You are yours and you are mine 
Breathe in my private waters 
You’re not yours 
You are mine 
Sleep in my private waters 
You were yours 
Now you are mine

We speak in odd meters 
Giving ourselves a pregnant pause 
A place to breathe here with you 
I don't want a sacrifice 
Or your touch or your life 
I just want to listen to you 

Inside 
Inside 
Inside 
Inside you 

Pry myself into my heart 
Pry myself it's the only art 
Try me 
I'm trying to be you 
Pry yourself into your heart 
Pry yourself it's the only art 
Try me 
I'm trying to be you 

Inside 
Inside 
Inside 
Inside you 

What did you say you wanted to kill? 
Who, what, why, when we will? 
Help me, help me still 
You want to affect people how 
Close your eyes open your mouth 
Help me still 

Inside 
Inside 
Inside 
Inside you 

Pry myself into my heart 
Pry myself it's the only art 
Try me I'm trying to be you 
Pry yourself into your heart 
Prey yourself it's the only art 
Try me I'm trying to be you 

I touch myself I can't dissolve 
Into the ocean I fall 
Where you are I swam with me 
I push my hands through my hair 
And swim back, back from where 
You are, I swam with me 

Pry myself into my heart 
Pry myself it's the only art 
Try me I'm trying to be you 
Pry yourself into your heart 
Pry yourself it's the only art 
Try me I'm trying to be you 

Trying to be you 
Trying to be you 
Sly me I'm trying to be you 
Trying to be you 
Trying to be you 
Sly me I'm trying to be me

how many of you have seen it? 
that thing standing there 
man woman descriptions 
ripples in the air 
  
turn your face in anguish 
recognizable sorrow 
that laughing threadbare hatred 
swelling for tomorrow 
  
-chorus- 
there’s a duality 
when they wield the knife 
the part of you that’s screaming 
whispered advice 
  
those of you i touch 
your cheeks so soft and round 
like late dewy apples 
rotting on the ground 
  
i wanted to see what i could be 
let me tell you what i found 
hard wood in my hand 
cold metal coming down 
  
coming down 
i’m coming down 
coming down 
i’m coming down 
- 
in the orchards near me 
for fifteen years i’ve gone 
culled the sweetest tartest 
the great wasps circle round 
  
smiling at my island 
yah looking at your eyes 
you play such beautiful music 
in your bright disguise

In my old garage   
below tulip trees   
wake or sleepy time   
it's all the same to me   

I want you to reach out   
haven't been in touch   
it's been two days   
it's been too much   

No don't rush it   
i really want to talk   
why'd you dye your hair   
you said I say too much   

Don't you understand   
what a lie means?   
You said you fucked forty   
by fourteen   

I am what I am   
You are what you are   
I'm not what you're not   
You aren't who you are   

I didn't want   
I didn't need   
I shouldn't have   
I don't deserve to bleed   

I know how you taste   
salty as the sea   
You're a real person   

I am just   
Fear in the Rain   

Let's make some   
rules for us   
what we can't do   
is us   

We must call   
we must write   
we must love   
we mustn't fight   

I never said   
what I did   
kicked Daisy down the stairs   
it was excellent   

Candy in my skin   
fills me up again   
tears the pink away   

cotton candy   
melts in the rain   
red fears wash away   

wash away again   
wash away in the rain   
and so do you

I lay real still
and closed my eyes
I breathed real deep
and said good bye

I'm not a dream
I'm not a lie
I know who I am
and I know why

In my sky
there's only ten stars
I know my name
I know who I are

I could not be my answer
while i was the I blamed
I had forgotten
all of my

Holding on my hand
I wanted to know
If I am a circle
am I hollow