WHOLE

time to be me again  

My hole life  
I thought I was whole  
what I thought was wrong  
now my world is gone  

All these years  
I’ve wasted my time  
with all these feelings  
remaining inside  

Buried young one  
Child inside  
Rotting child  
Corrupted inside  

The Idiot’s Face  
is on your face  
Contorts and squeezes  
Distorts and bleeds  
The horror of ruin  

May all this pain  
go back to you  
May all this pain  
return to you  

May all my pain  
go back to you  
May all my pain  
return to you  

The hate from  
the past  
The child from  
the past  
The child from  
the past  

Made my reality at last.

My Little Problem

My little problem  
with feeling pain  
Every time I try  
it's not there again  

I have a way   
there is a way   
You’ll be the master   
You’ll be the slave   

I’ll be the one   
that takes it away   
You’ll be the one   
that gives you today   

Down from my eyes   
World alive inside me   
bright now capsized   
life I sent away   

On my little waters   
darker than the sea   
Master of all my feelings   
please protect me   

I will arise   
with or without what’s me   
Life won’t tread on me   
life won’t keep me still   

~  
I have a way  
There is a way   
You’ll be the master   
You’ll be the slave   

I’ll be the one   
that takes it away   
You’ll be the one   
that gives you today   

My little problem   
with feeling pain   
Every time I try   
it’s not there again  

I’ve bled too much   
for the weakest answer   
I have my life   
I have my mind   

In my life I’m living   
I don’t even want hope   
I want the sea to hold me   
I’ll just swim away   

~  
Life of waters   
One I never answered   
One I always needed   
One I put below me   

Why would I choose   
to discard my only answer?   
I couldn’t take it   
I still can’t at all   

If I had a loophole   
If I had the easy way   
I wouldn’t do this  
I wouldn’t drown it all   

~

HOLLOW

I lay real still
and closed my eyes
I breathed real deep
and said good bye

I'm not a dream
I'm not a lie
I know who I am
and I know why

In my sky
there's only ten stars
I know my name
I know who I are

I could not be my answer
while i was the I blamed
I had forgotten
all of my

Holding on my hand
I wanted to know
If I am a circle
am I hollow

THE WAY

i learned my experience 
was solely tangible

i have controlled my body
my mind
and my mouth
im on the wave

i am the wave
better than you
better than you
better than you
better than you

i have controlled my body
my mind
and my mouth

im on the wave
im on the wave
im on the wave
i am the wave

im on the wave
im on the wave
im am the wave
better than you

i hurt myself in front of you
i have to suffer

i want to touch myself
and feel

my mind my body

i am strong
im starting to feel

I FALL

Any way at all  
I will find a way to fall  
find the thing I need  
I destroy  
then I feed  

Respite I needed tonight  
love and stars I needed tonight  
find the thing I need  
I destroy  
then I feed  

I fall 
I fall 
I fall 
I fall 
I have found my way 
to fall

PHANTOM

they told me that I would experience the intangible 

that which could not be measured by my 
senses 

said I was just a body 
my body defined life 

how could I experience the intangible 
named 
emotion 

phantom phenomena confused this body 
phantoms don’t exist 

a means to create my phantom 
I’m going to make it exist 

extreme stimuli provoked my entity 
I found definition of my nature 

I embraced dissolution of my body 
I understand why I exist